Paradigm Shift: A radical change in thinking from an accepted point of view to a new belief.
Since January 20th around 2:15 pm, It has been an accepted fact to me that I would be having a baby this September. Every due date calculator, my first dr visit, my first ultrasound, everyone said the same thing. My due date varied between Sept 27 and 28, but I had no doubt in my mind. This September, I was having my baby.
Today is September 30th. It is 6 am, I woke up with my husband feeling exactly the same I do every morning; sore, tired and impatient. “Baby will come when baby is ready. He just needs to ‘cook’ a little longer” While these phrases are spoken out of love, experience and (probably) sympathy, they still don’t put my baby in my arms.
Of course it’s inevitable, he will be here. He will come meet us. He can’t stay in there forever (right?!?!).
The ridiculous part is that I’m only 3 days past my due date (“only”? feels like an eternity). Many women have gone far longer than this past their due date and God Bless them, I don’t know how you do it. I’m clearly not very patient. Patience is a virtue? A virtue I evidently lack.
I’ve tried to bribe him “Hey Jackson, if you come out I will wrap you up all warm and love you and everyone will be so nice to you” That didn’t work. I’ve tried to threaten him, I even told him that if he is born in October we are changing his name to “Fart Obama Bante”. Somehow, THAT didn’t even work (it would’ve worked for me!!). Everything that could possibly be ready is ready.
So here it is, the last day of September and I’m starting to think, I’m not having a September baby. I hadn’t planned for an October baby…
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.